Monday, May 14, 2018

Justice

We're almost through the High School years! Yay! This one will jump to college for a minute too. So sorry. 

My poor father was highly outnumbered by girls. He needed an heir to carry on the family name. It was looking to be unlikely. I was 16, Alyssa was 8, and Maria was 2. Soooooooooo......my parents call us into the living room. I didn't even sit down this time. I knew the words that were about to come out of my mother's mouth. "We're going to have another baby!" Maria spoke some gibberish and I couldn't interpret if it was happy gibberish or pissed off gibberish. I didn't stick around that long, I went back down to MY basement.

But eeeewwww!! After Maria was born, I had to watch that disgusting Miracle of Life movie! So now I knew way more than I wanted to. Can we say dry heaving?? To make it worse, once we knew there would finally be a boy, my mom and I were driving somewhere. I don't remember how this conversation even started but all of a sudden she starts telling me about this book she read to increase the odds of having a boy. OMG STOP!!!! 

Anyways, let's move past all that sick shit so I don't throw up my breakfast. I was attending a Catholic school and was in my English class. We were having a class discussion about Othello. I love Shakespeare. The intercom in the classroom comes on, "Could you send Gabriella to the office, her mom just had her baby!"

Really?? Did we need to be that specific?? Just tell me to come down to the damn office! All of a sudden:

"EWWWWW you're parents are still having kids???? EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWW!" Like I didn't already know that. 

January 2002, Justice is born. Oh the joy father's face. Maria did not feel the same. They held him in Maria's arms and she said "I don't like it, take it back!" Well, they didn't take him back. We kinda like him.

I mean give me a break, how can you not love that little face?? The dimples! It's just not fair! The boy after my own heart! He grew on Maria too. They are two peas in a pod. People think they're twins. They might as well be.  


Justice starts playing football, he's exceptionally good. He's a quarter back. But before all of this, when he was in the little league of football, there were tons of tournaments to go to. But he had sisters with softball tournaments too and it was Alyssa's turn. During this trip, something happened. Bet you don't know what. I was in college. I was 22. Justice was 7. Seeing a pattern yet?

My family was driving back from a tournament in St. George that I was not invited to I might add. There really just wasn't room for me in the car and there was no point of driving two cars. Well in the middle of nowhere in Southern Utah, Justice has a grandmal seizure. My mom was sitting in the back seat with Maria and Justice. My dad pulls the car off the road and got out. Alyssa was in the passenger seat, so she got out a blanket for my mom while Maria stayed in the car. My mom called 911, my dad panicked trying to lay on the top of him to control his seizing (that's a big no no). My mom starts yelling at my dad to get off of him (see big no no) so she could judge how bad the seizure was and how long it was. My dad was going to learn the protocol of seizure response later. 


The paramedics didn't get to them for over five minutes since they were in the middle of nowhere. About 30-45 seconds he came out of the seizure. They took Justice and my mom back to St. George and to the ER. Justice had a fever of 103 and an ear infection. He had no signs of this before they were packed up and headed back. The fam stayed in town another night and the next day the ride home was so stressful. They were watching Justice and Maria. They had emergency recovery medicine for Maria and didn't know which one they would have to use it on, if at all. Justice had an EEG later that month and came back normal. The EEG only showed seizure tendencies during the strobe light test. Thank some more 
stars, he never had another event. 

Now, all four of us have had at least one seizure. Maria and I diagnosed with epilepsy. I got the call about his seizure. I was so upset, and I had rage more than anything. Once I found out that his EEG was normal I was so relieved and grateful. 

God I love that boy. 













DON'T FORGET TO CLICK FOLLOW TO GET UPDATES ON NEW POSTS!

Sunday, May 13, 2018

Dear Momma

Nope, not the Tupac song. My Dear Momma lyrics are much different. Much, much different. I was watching the movie 28 Days starring the one and only Sandra Bullock. I totally idolize Sandra. A cop said to me once, "Look it's Sandra Bullock! Can I have you're autograph??" No this was not a trick to sign a ticket, I was an intern at the time and in my prime which meant I looked like Sandra Bullock!

My mom and I love the movie! Not the whole alcoholic rehab thing, just both enjoyed the movie together. It had been more than a minute since the last time I watched it. And there's this line from the movie that made me think of my mom.

After Sandra gets checked in and is still annoyed with having to be there, this spiritual lady throws out this biblical verse (I'm still not getting holy). "God will never give us more than we can handle."


She's given birth to four children, two of them at the 10 pound mark. She's nurtured us more than we deserve; helping to shape us into the individuals we are today. She's created wonderful traditions that makes her daughter try to recreate every holiday detail she's ever done.

Ummm....she is also able to aim breast milk at her children's eyes. No joke. Alyssa and I were giving her a hard time about something as she was pumping for Maria. She fired once at me and once at Alyssa! Successfully hitting us each in the eye! Was it traumatic? Uh ya! Was it impressive? Absolutely.



My mother is able to be in about five places at once. Maybe more. Between school drop offs, sport events, pick ups, taking who knows what to who knows which kid, and a zillion other things.

She has dinner done every night. Breakfast, lunch, and dinner we all had at once at one table together. And in between would be cleaning after all of us. Oh and working if I forgot to mention that.

On top of all these miracles she performs she's had four kids have seizures, two diagnosed with epilepsy. She's watched three of those four have their seizures. She took us all to doctor appointments, hospitals, EEGs, MRIs, blood work, ER rooms, etc.

She has done more for us than I can even write. She has been our biggest fan and has taken all of our worries and put them on her own shoulders to make them easier for us.

What she has done for me in this venture that keeps growing is more than I will ever be able to do for another human being no matter how hard I may try.



Our mother has has been through a lot and dealt with it all, things that are peoples' worse fears. However, her strength and love proves that God will never give her more than she can handle.

We love you Momma




 Happy Mother's Day, especially those strong women who keep those with epilepsy safe and loved.



DON'T FORGET TO CLICK FOLLOW TO GET UPDATES ON NEW POSTS!


Just a Bunch of Hocus Pocus

So who the hell lit the black flame candle that just effed up my Halloween?? ;) You gotta love that movie, if you don't your childhood...